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Friday Feels // Vol. 2

Happy Friday, friends!

After being TA-less for two days this week due to the sickness that has been spreading like wildfire at my school – I am definitely happy to see Friday come around this week! So far, I have successfully avoided anything worse than a cold this season and I’d like to keep it that way! I’ve been taking 500 mg of Elderberry (I ordered 3 bottles of these elderberry capsules from Now Foods – they’re great!) for the past few weeks about twice a day. Whatever works, friends, whatever works.

This past Saturday, I discovered what might be my new favorite Raleigh-area coffee shop! Fount Coffee + Kitchen in Morrisville is super cute AND they have a 100% gluten-free kitchen! I got their vanilla latte with almond milk and their Morning Scramble stack (GF toast from a local company topped with scrambled eggs, bacon, and mozzarella). DELICIOUS. I’m still thinking about that toast, it was so good. I even swung by after work yesterday to snag a GF/Vegan dark chocolate raspberry brownie. YUM! Sola has long been my favorite Raleigh coffee shop, but Fount has definitely tied for first.

Speaking of coffee…on Monday, in between work and small group, I grabbed some dinner at the Whole Foods in West Cary. Instead of a normal Whole Foods coffee bar they have a La Farm Bakery! While I’ve never been to the freestanding La Farm that is in another part of Cary, I’ve heard it’s delicious. I just think it’s so cool that they partnered with Whole Foods like that to share the same space. After eating my salad, I went over to grab my standard vanilla latte and a table so that I could read Hebrews 11 to get ready for group. It was so cute and cozy that I nearly forgot I was technically still in a grocery store!

This week I finally took the plunge and snagged a Premium Starter Kit from Young Living! I’m super excited to be on Rachel Walker‘s team and start diving into these oils! Where I am in my own wellness journey, I’m definitely open to the emotional support that these oils can provide. Which is kind of hilarious considering I’ve kinda been a skeptic/doubter for a long time. But I’ve definitely seen how oils can be calming and great sleep support so I’ve gradually become more and more open to them! I’m sure as I dive into this community more I’ll be sharing about it here too.

Lastly, this weekend, some friends are hosting a Valentine’s Movie Night which is sure to be so fun. The commentary at these movie nights are usually better than the actual movies! Then, Sunday after church I’m planning on going home for a quick visit since I took Monday off. This week has definitely been a packed one but full of good things!

What are your weekend plans?

Beyond Measure

I suppose I’m a bit like everyone else out there when it comes to the approach of a new year. I get reflective – more reflective than usual, I mean – and I begin to ponder what the upcoming year is going to look like. The funny thing about that is that I know that the year is probably not going to end at all like what I envisioned in the beginning. I can look back to this these last few days of December over the past four or five years and I see the same pattern. And truth be told, 2019 is one of the first years that when I think ahead – I don’t really have a clear vision.

That’s not to say that I don’t have goals for this year or things that I’d like to work towards, because that’s not the case at all. These past few months have created a new sense of appreciation for detours and a beautiful acceptance in my heart. The road may diverge from where we think it is leading us, but the journey is good and holy and full of beautiful work.

From 2014-early 2018, I was in this season of preparation where I truly felt so in tune with what I felt like God was asking me to step into that I never even considered that possibility that He might change the plans on me. And when He did? Well, that’s how I ended up here. In a city that I’d once prayed that He would send me to but never did. In a job that I’ve spent five years thinking I’d be leaving.

I began 2018 believing that I was going to end up in Central Illinois for grad school and I’m ended it here in Central North Carolina. As Annie F. Downs writes in her most recent book, Remember God, “sometimes when you’re following God, even doing exactly what you’re supposed to be doing can still land you in the wrong spot. Or at least not get you where you wanted to go. And yet sometimes, those are the best stories He tells. Heartbreaking. Hopeful. True for me.”

And for me.

As I sit here now, on day three of a new year, I do not believe that I landed in the wrong spot. Different doesn’t mean it’s wrong. But those words that Annie wrote in her book, this book that reached me at the perfect time, are certainly true for me. My walk with God is full of stories of Him using detours and heartbreak to create something hopeful and it gives me all the feels.

Life today looks differently than what I thought it would a year ago. And I will probably be saying the same thing this time next year. But today I’m crazy grateful for our God who consistently gives beyond measure and who chooses answers years-old prayers instead of my newer ones.

5 Things

5 Things
  1. We’re having our first snow of the season here in Raleigh! Well, I guess it’s not even Winter yet – how crazy is that? Around here, we don’t usually get any snow until at least mid-late January since it usually doesn’t get cold enough until then. But this pre-Christmas snowstorm brought us 5-7 inches (we never officially measured) but some areas near us got up to 10-11! As a teacher, it’s always a mixture of feelings when it snows. It’s always nice to have a break but having to make up the time can be frustrating. 
  2. I signed up for Emily P. Freeman’s Quiet Collection for Christmas today and I am so excited to start listening! Emily has the most soothing voice and I love listening to her podcast so I knew that this collection of audio devotionals would be just wonderful. There are 14 of them so starting today, I’ll be able to listen to them up through Christmas!
  3. Also, on that note…how is Christmas Eve already two weeks from today?! I always find myself wishing this season could last twice as long – it’s just so cozy and merry and wonderful!
  4. In the past week or so, I feel myself gradually coming out of this “funk” (don’t know exactly what to call it) that I’ve been in for a couple months now. I know a large part of why I’ve been feeling what I have has been due to my relationship with God. While He never leaves us unattended, this has definitely been a season where I’ve retreated inward a bit and definitely didn’t seek Him out and communicate with Him like I should. Like I shared in my post earlier this week, the theme that I feel like has been continually highlighted for me has been Remember God. It’s no coincidence that I read Annie F. Downs’ book by the same name back a couple months when I first slipped into this season and then these words came up again two weeks ago in a super convicting sermon at church.
  5. This past week, with my first published blog post since September, I feel myself being pulled ever so slightly back to the blogging world a bit. Writing and blogging have been so central in my story for more than eight years now and it’s a platform that I truly don’t know that I could ever fully abandon. My audience has ebbed and flowed over the years but I can’t help but feel sometimes like it doesn’t really matter how many people actually look at this space (currently, that would be very few at all) just as long as I’m sharing something. With the New Year just a few weeks away, I always take this time each year to think on the year ahead and intentionally write out my goals with the aid of Lara Casey’s Powersheets (which are wonderful!). I am praying and reflecting on how God would like me to use my voice in this space and what He wants it to look like. 

That’s what’s up around here lately! Here’s to finishing out 2018 strong!

Remember God

We say it every year, but where has the time gone?? Here we are on the downward slope to 2019 and in a lot of ways it feels like 2018 only just got started.

2018 has been a big year for me I guess, which I did kind of expect going into it. I’m in a much different place, literally and figuratively, today than I was a year ago. The beginning of 2018 had me sending off applications to grad school in central Illinois and to child life internships across the Southeast. I prayerfully sent them off, assuming that God would send me off to one of those destinations in Fall 2018. But in the Spring, I realized that this path – even though I thought I had heard the directions from the Lord so clearly – was not going to be coming to fruition. I still felt a change stirring within me and I felt the pull to look for other jobs in other cities. So, in April/May the path aligned so smoothly for me to accept a new teaching position in Raleigh, NC. It all fell into place so well and I found myself spending the summer preparing for a move from Charlotte to Raleigh to live with my sister.

 

Remember God

Summer 2018 held a lot of expectations, I admit. I created this vision of what my new life in Raleigh was going to be like as I basked in the sweetness of feeling like I was so in tune with God’s calling for my future. And I think I was in tune, even though now that I am looking at the end of 2018 and life doesn’t look anything like I thought it was going to back when it started. In hindsight, I don’t think that I necessarily heard Him wrong but I think God, in His infinite wisdom, definitely nudges towards other things that are going to serve us better. Rather than send me to Illinois for grad school – where I know absolutely no one – He sent me to Raleigh to live with my sister, where I already knew a fair amount of people, and to a job where I already knew one of my co-workers from college. I know God provides protection to all, but it feels particularly true about my walk with Him.

I’ve realized in recent weeks, as I’ve come to acknowledge this feeling of being slightly “off-kilter” and something just feeling off, I’ve realized that at some point I mixed up the feeling of being expectant and having expectations. Somewhere along the way, I shifted from being expectant and hopeful of what God was going to do through this change and transition to creating my own expectations of what He would do.

Two very different things.

To me, the state of being expectant is to release control, leave room for vulnerability, and approach life with open hands that are ready to accept whatever comes. In contrast, having expectations means that there is a set outcome that we are envisioning, rather than embracing the mystery that comes with new experiences….

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