As writers, we depend on the words that flow through us and onto the page (or screen, in most cases). We can trust in them and trust that they will always be there.
For those of who write for Christ, our words are our connection to Him. We pray over these words and hope that they will always be honest and kind and true and always point others to Him.
But what happens when the words don’t come?
When the words don’t come, everything begins to change. This door, this outlet that has always been a fixture and a blessing suddenly isn’t open. Emotions begin to pile up and overflow inside without a place to go.
You pray for the Holy Spirit to speak into your soul and set things right again. And when that doesn’t seem to work, you ask God what he is trying to show you through all of this. You might even pray through your worship music playlist in hopes that the truth sung in the songs will be enough to open the door just a crack.
Without this outlet, you start to feel the weight of the unspoken words that have no where to go. In the face of a season that caused so many things to rise up within you, you’ve come to rely on the healing words that flow from Christ’s being and through your heart. You pray some more and finally you pour your heart out to God asking Him why? The trust that you’ve placed in Him gets rattled by the darkness just enough so that you actually to have to ask Him why.
Being still seems like an impossible task and simply resting in the moment feels too much like giving up. Our voices have gone and suddenly so has our ability to hear. Our ability to hear Jesus amid the frenzy that we’ve put ourselves in.
When we write as a means for processing, expressing, and healing – a closed door is new territory and we’re not quite sure what to do. Even when the answer is always so obvious.
“We believe we heard right way back then.
You said plant.
And so we planted.
You said water.
And so we water.
But we’re having a hard time believing that You’ll make the seed grow because today the results feel foggy and unsettling.” – Emily P. Freeman in A Prayer For When You’re Out of Good Ideas
The Bible reminds us in Hebrews 10:23, “Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise.”
Hope is an incredible thing in the face of uncertainty and life’s stumbling blocks. As I was in the midst of working on this post, I came across a sentence in one of my textbooks as I was doing some of my assigned reading for class. The context was a chapter on the different paradigms of play for children in the medical settings but the words were beautiful and spoke directly to my soul.
“Hope provides a passion for the possible and is considered by many to be the strongest driving force of humans in regard to bringing about change and igniting the spirit within us to continue in the face of overwhelming challenges.” – The Handbook of Child Life
Trusting in God and clinging to the hope that we have in Him is sometimes the only thing we can do when we are faced with overwhelming silence. Our voices may have grown silent for a moment, but our God could never be silenced.
And so we wait, with hope-filled hearts and trust in a faithful God.